Conflict between felt and displayed emotions

Recently I read a story of a revolutionist [or I am not sure if it was a film] who wore white dresses only always. When she was about to die, she asked for a green jacket. People thought she has become crazy due to illness and ignored her wish. She died without fulfilling her wish.

She sacrificed her entire life for the wellbeing of the society and finally died as a crazy woman just because of her desire for a green jacket while being on the deathbed.

Why was she forced to suppress her entire emotions while being alive?

Why couldn’t she express her felt emotions?

Was it a part of the so called “disciplined life”?

Obviously “a green jacket” was not at all big thing.. still it was banned in her life for some reasons.

May be a conflict was happening inside her mind between felt and expressed emotions.

Finally she could express a little bit of it only when she was becoming unconscious, nearing death.

And then why did people misunderstand her when she expressed a bit of it during her final moments?

 

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One thought on “Conflict between felt and displayed emotions

  1. Sha'Tara

    February 16, 2018 at 11:46pm

    quote: “Recently I read a story of a revolutionist [or I am not sure if it was a film] who wore white dresses only always. When she was about to die, she asked for a green jacket. People thought she has become crazy due to illness and ignored her wish. She died without fulfilling her wish. … Finally she could express a little bit of it only when she was becoming unconscious, nearing death.

    And then why did people misunderstand her when she expressed a bit of it during her final moments?”

    They did not misunderstand her, she misunderstood them. She had become an idol. They owned her, including her thoughts and desires. She “could not” desire something contrary to their beliefs about her. If she was their idol in a white dress, she could not, did not, have the authority to change that image without changing her “worshippers” minds on how they visualized her. Their image of her was the power, not the dying woman. The “White Dress” revolutionary could only continue if she didn’t change at the end.

    What would happen to Christianity if they changed the image of Jesus into a rich Sadducee who died of a natural death in his home at age of 80?

    A bit of psychology of human nature and nature of faith.

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      Akhila

      March 1, 2018 at 10:32pm

      Hmm.. you are right.. you gave me a different dimension of thought…

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  2. Charvi Tandon

    February 18, 2018 at 12:20am

    That’s a very deep question .
    Honestly when you don’t express yourself in completion , people take you for granted .
    People think you are wierd when you do something that is different from your previous behaviour and that is the catch .

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      Akhila

      March 1, 2018 at 10:33pm

      Exactly.. and in a way the white dress revolutionary kind people are forced to live in that boundaries being some idols

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  3. thewritewomanblog

    February 19, 2018 at 7:01pm

    Sometimes to become ‘someone’ you need to give up being yourself and stand up to what is required at the moment. This woman stood up all her life for something she wished will be remembered but probably when life was ebbing out of her, she realized that her wish will go unfulfilled. But Alas, that is all the mortals will remember.

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      Akhila

      March 6, 2018 at 4:04pm

      Yup..she herself became an idol..no one could change a bit of it at any cost

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