She lives every moment in his breath, cuddled by his love

She is all alone if detached from the warmth of his arms

Never had she thought to win over her emotions for him as

Liberty from his armor of love could outbreak her too badly

But on a day she wore a dispassionate mask so deliberately

That her heart was reflecting the evidence of her adaptability

Still once in a while she loses her grasp over her mind

And her soul whispers “I am not ignoring you, never can I.

But the more I am unseen by you, the more I get used to that”

It’s just a play of a burning heart in the hunt for a balance.

“എന്നും നിങ്ങളെന്‍റെ കൂടെയുണ്ടാവണം. എന്‍റെ കണ്ണടയുവോളും എനിക്കു നിങ്ങളെ കണ്ടുകൊണ്ടിരിക്കണം.”

ഇതൊന്നും ഞാന്‍ പറഞ്ഞതല്ല. എവിടൊക്കെയോ കേട്ടു മറന്ന ചിലതു.
ഞാനതിനെ ഒന്നൂടൊന്നു മനസ്സിരുത്തി വായിച്ചപ്പോള്‍ മറഞ്ഞിരുന്ന സ്വാര്‍ഥതയാണു കണ്ണില്പ്പെട്ടതു.

അതല്ലേ സത്യം?

എനിക്കു ജീവിക്കാന്‍ നിങ്ങളെ വേണം എന്ന അന്തര്‍ലീനമായ സത്യം. സ്വാര്‍ഥത നിറഞ്ഞ സത്യം.

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“Oh God, please don’t take him away from me as long as I am alive”

Such a lovely prayer, no..? What do you think..?

Here, someone is emphasizing that he/she can’t live without his/her soul-mate.

Can you see love there?

“No worries once your life is over, but what about your soul-mate? Can he/she live without you? Who will take care of him/her? Your life was safe as he/she was with you until your last breath. Now what will happen to him/her in your absence? You are least bothered on that as you are already dead. Isn’t it..? That’s why you are praying like “Oh God, please don’t take him away from me as long as I am alive”

Unfortunately my eyes could not trace the least bits of love over there. Is it not all about selfishness?

Instead I found this much thoughtful I will never get over the grief of losing you as you are my life breath. But moreover I love you and can never make you alone. So my Lord, please keep me alive atleast till his last breath so that my honey will never be alone”

You never know the positive vibe I cherish

While resting in your divine arms

While sleeping under your breath.

You never know how my days are worthless

If I miss your desirous gestures

If my nights are not around you.