You can’t be without me

As I am the girl for your soul

You are fooling yourself when

You just make me go away

Wrap your arms around me

As you want me as much as I do

Hug me tight from my back

As our hearts do beat as one

The power of his eyes

The magic of his fingers

The naughtiness of the all

In him make her so hooked

And inseparable from him.

എന്നോര്‍മ്മകളിലൊരു തണലായ

ലിഞ്ഞില്ലാതാവാന്‍ നീയോര്‍ത്തു

വെന്നാലറിഞ്ഞീടുക, ബന്ധനം

ചെയ്തു ഞാന്‍ നിന്നെയേറെ മുമ്പേ

മഞ്ഞു പെയ്യുമീയിലപ്പടര്‍പ്പിനുള്ളിലായ്

 

Whenever the rhythm

Of my life is mystified,

I hear a mystical note

Driving me to accept

The beats of my soul

And I get synced again

Your warmth continues to spiral

Forming an insatiable yen of desire

Within the strings of my heart

My musings dissolves in yours

When your fingers slide around

Playing the familiar song in my nerves

You are my life breath, don’t leave me

Alone, making me out of breath

 

People come and leave our life while some are glued to our hearts. It’s easy to be among strangers as there is no obligations, no demands, no expectations etc etc [Read about “The comfort while being with strangers“]. But when it’s about the glued ones, there is some sort of happiness and at the same time some sort of nervousness too.

What’s that nervousness with them..?

Is it the worries about sustaining the relationship? But does it really matter if they really understand you? Is there any extra effort required to sustain the relationship if there exists a healthy relationship?

No… so what’s that cause of uneasiness or nervousness..?

Is it fear of losing them..? Possible.. You don’t want to miss them as they have become a part of your life and it would be painful if lost them.. Oh.. So isn’t it a selfish thought?.. Like you don’t want to make yourself worried, so you want them to be with you.. hmm…

If you don’t think it to be selfishness, is there any other cause for that uneasiness?

Is it like you have to keep an image with them? ..Say like you are of the type “What others think?”

Okay, if still you think that none of the reasons matches that uneasiness, what else it could be..?

Is it like you love them, care them and trust them, but still feel lonely with them? Like they are not being there for you emotionally. You feel rejected while you were starving for their attention. You are supported neither in your highest good nor in your bad.

Is it like you are never on the same page? So while trying to be on the same page, folds and cuts appear in the page. Those marks remain forever while trying to make yourself fit in to that page, making you uncomfortable.

Is it due to the absence of comfort zone you have with them? You are not free enough to be frank in front of them or you think they don’t let you get inside their zone.

Or is it the sense of wanting to belong as posted here ? When the possessiveness comes in to picture one cannot live without expectations. You worry about the unattended emotions. You are bothered on the lack of acknowledgements.

If you could compromise all these for the sake of peace, well obviously it would be easy to maintain a relationship. But will it be an intimate one then?

So ultimately it makes one to ponder that

You need to work hard at a relationship. So there is no need of feeling down if people say ‘you are in a bad choice’ seeing you working hard.

Ultimately it’s your life and your choice. No one else is responsible for the same. Do whatever makes you happy and positive. And own whatever you do.

Thinking aloud why it should be treated as a big problem after all? Just ….

You are not alone,

You are mine completely.

The words resonates in the air

And the heart gets well again

The swing is pushing her to heights of uncertainties

While he is still playing music on the chords her heart

During some iced up times in those ups and downs

Her heart started to beat again with that initial heat

Reveal your love with a hug now. It’s always better than two drops of tears at a later point in time.

Wish you all a lovely new year..

With loads of love and virtual hugs..

She lives every moment in his breath, cuddled by his love

She is all alone if detached from the warmth of his arms

Never had she thought to win over her emotions for him as

Liberty from his armor of love could outbreak her too badly

But on a day she wore a dispassionate mask so deliberately

That her heart was reflecting the evidence of her adaptability

Still once in a while she loses her grasp over her mind

And her soul whispers “I am not ignoring you, never can I.

But the more I am unseen by you, the more I get used to that”

It’s just a play of a burning heart in the hunt for a balance.