Hiding from the self

Mind turns inwards

Wearing many hats

When lost in pain.

Without letting in

Silence to break

The emotive heart,

Without letting tears

To form a stream,

The self pulls off

From the screen        

Allowing the mind

To repress the woe

The game goes on..

An emotion peeks in,

and I stop.

Feel caught in its grip,

and I stop….

Then at the epitome

Of fog of grief

Wherein the mind

Can no more hold

The cloudy eyes

The self comes back,

Sits with the fears,

Recaps all that gone,

And then let all the

Tears out in private..

Slowly the self is

Back on its feet again

Yet nervy in the divine

Temple of acceptance..

Read the first part here….

Stand together and eradicate injustice – Part 1

I ran towards him. But before I could reach him, I found him assaulted by those people who was there on the other side of the street earlier.

Whats going on..? Someone rushed to me and dragged me a few meters away from the spot.

And at once I heard a noise. It was a blast. I looked back and found the flesh and bones of my dream rising high in the sky along with fire.

I was frozen. I felt some veins being broken inside my brain.

Who is all that around me? where am I? Am I admitted in a hospital?

How long have I been here..? Just an hour back. Aren’t I taken here a few weeks back.?

Someone is sitting beside me. It is him who saved me from that blast.

“How many are dead in that blast. ? Why did you save me?”

He just smiled and said “Only one. And you are saved from a devils hand and not from the blast”

It took me a lot of time to realize what he said and left unsaid.

Yes, it is a world where in people are least dared to stand together against injustice. This might be an uncivilised thought as in Castrate them. But do such child abusers deserve anything lesser?

I am fed up.. I cannot wait here anymore

I need to go home. Oh it started raining too. How come I miss my umbrella? Or did I forget it somewhere? I think i have kept in the juice shop.

Should I go back and collect my umbrella or hire a taxi and go home?

Or should I wait a few more minutes? But it is going to heavily rain soon. Seems I have got a roof of clouds which are just about to collapse. Better to find some shelter before the droplets hit me on.

While walking towards a nearby shop, I found something strange on the other side of street, on my left side. There was a ten year old girl surrounded by a few people. The girl was carrying something in her hand, something like a big white carry bag. It was not much clear for me as she was on the other side of street.

Oh, she is distributing some packets to the people around her. And they are keeping it to their chest and praying for a moment.

My phone is ringing, the same ring tone for which I was waiting for long. My heart started to jingle. Yes, I heard the voice which I wanted to hear on the other side of my phone. I was asked to look right. Oh, it’s him. He is coming towards me. How bad it would have been if I had left without waiting for him. I would have missed him forever if I had gone.

He is just a few feet away from me. My eyes could feel only his presence, nothing around me.

Oh, what’s that happening..why is he falling down? Did someone shoot him? But I didnt hear any voice..Or any heart attack..? Oh God, is this what you wanted..?

To be continued.. stay tuned

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Though comment box  is not shown up in mobile wordpress app for self hosted blogs, it appears in desktop page.

Its really frustrating when you are unable to leave a feedback after reading a post of your choice.

A few solutions which I have seen are

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While I tried to contact Jetpack team, they told like ‘this commenting feature is yet not fully implemented.’

And interestingly one more thing they informed me. That is if you follow more than 1K or 2K blogs, self hosted blogs wont appear in your reader even if you follow them.

So only option is to subscribe on self hosted blog like wordsandnotion [ not the regular wordpress follow]. Then you will get email notifications on post updates. [E-mail notifications wont be getting for wordpress followers from self hosted blogs, you will get emails only if you subscribe]

If this specific post comes to the notice of Jetpack team or wordpress team, I wish some workarounds to happen at the earliest from their side

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Certain bonds are unaffected if never met or contacted for long.

And still then you are free to knock at their door all of a sudden on a day.

Such friendships are really precious where in you can be with them forgetting your whole ego.

No worries of being discovered as you are exposed to them fully.

No qualms of any greedy eyes as you live in their heart only.