You are tempted to reveal your passion or goal. What will you do?

When I was a child, I have heard my backgrounds telling ‘Don’t share it with all.. It’s just started only and still in papers.. We donno how it’s gonna happen..It may bring in more harm if talked about the same with all now.”

My mind followed the words for long. But it was neither the fear of failure nor the horror of negative vibes that prevented me from disclosing my dream to all.  I was just keen on my baby steps driving me to a better vision and so my energy was fully upon the same and little on talking about that. That’s all. And it doesn’t mean that the whole excitement of baby steps was residing within me alone, of course it was spread all across my comfort zone.

It’s said commonly that people who talk about their dreams are less likely to accomplish them.  The reasons behind that thought could be like when they talk about them, it creates a fake accomplishment feel and so little hard work later. Or maybe they are afraid of envious eyes or negative criticism hitting on them.

If I say publicly, “I am gonna be  a writer”, how can it demotivate me. It can only drive me more as I have made it public now.. I need to prove it in front of you.. So I have to work harder and harder”

And now, what the hell is going to happen to me with those envious eyes, if any are there.. What electromagnetic waves could arise out of a jealousy mind, which are good enough to demotivate me.. So far no such waves are proven by science. Until then, I don’t have to bother about that.

If their negative criticism are strong enough to discourage me, then I am not at all fit for that goal.. or miles to go for me to stick upon my goal….

So they are not at all Cons..In a way sharing your passion is going to be advantageous.. Know how..? You are going to collect different perspectives, a lending hand if needed from your comfort zone and most importantly an extra self-emphasis on your own dream by making it public. And of course, sharing in your comfort zone helps to have a better clarity on what exactly you want to achieve in life. [Read about What’s that one thing you are most passionate about?]

And now the ball is in your court. You can reveal if you are comfortable or else just keep shhhh….

Whatever it may be telling or not,

Never underestimate yourself, never think others perception is better than yours. Value your own goals, just focus, learn maximum, work hard and achieve that…

Are you in your late 20s?

If yes, be ready to welcome Saturn’s homecoming. Or be prepared to face questions about the life you are living.. A state of identity crisis.

A home coming happens when a planet completes its entire circuit through the sky and returns to the same place it was at the time of your birth.

Saturn return happens once every 29.5 years. So if you are in your late 20s, your play time is over. Saturn is nearing you. During the return, Saturn pulls you more intensively than usual reminding of your duties and responsibilities. Until then you had a feel like everything is possible, dreams can come true. But during this Saturn’s homecoming period, realities dominate the optimistic thoughts.  Yes, you are moving to adulthood.

If you are lucky enough you can have four more Saturn returns after the first one [second in late 50s, third in late 80s and fourth in late 110s…]

Actually most of the planets have the return/home coming. But I don’t understand how Saturn became so notorious out of that?  Venus, we treat for love, Jupiter for Goodwill, but poor Saturn for crises.

But what if we treat and welcome Saturn as a good reminder? Saturn’s energy is pulling you to concentrate more on your path. It is in fact making you stronger through challenges and crises. It is helping you to be well-ordered on your life journey. So welcome Saturn’s homecoming with more positivism.

Actually it is interesting to imagine how wonderfully somewhere out in the sky, Saturn changes our whole life.

I am neither an astrologer nor an astronomer to prove or disprove this. But I love these little little wonders of our universe. 

Read the first part here….

Stand together and eradicate injustice – Part 1

I ran towards him. But before I could reach him, I found him assaulted by those people who was there on the other side of the street earlier.

Whats going on..? Someone rushed to me and dragged me a few meters away from the spot.

And at once I heard a noise. It was a blast. I looked back and found the flesh and bones of my dream rising high in the sky along with fire.

I was frozen. I felt some veins being broken inside my brain.

Who is all that around me? where am I? Am I admitted in a hospital?

How long have I been here..? Just an hour back. Aren’t I taken here a few weeks back.?

Someone is sitting beside me. It is him who saved me from that blast.

“How many are dead in that blast. ? Why did you save me?”

He just smiled and said “Only one. And you are saved from a devils hand and not from the blast”

It took me a lot of time to realize what he said and left unsaid.

Yes, it is a world where in people are least dared to stand together against injustice. This might be an uncivilised thought as in Castrate them. But do such child abusers deserve anything lesser?

“What do you want to be, a doctor, engineer or a teacher like me? “

Mahitha answered “I want to be happy”

This is short dialogue from the malayalam movie “Vismayam”

To be happy” – That’s what we all want from the bottom of our heart. But is that really appreciated or taken care while ensuring to outdo always?

I am happy to be called as a busybee and yes, I am. But thinking aloud “Is that what I really wanted?”

Maybe Yes.

But won’t I miss the fun of idle moments..? So recently I started to feed this into my brain,

“Do everything that makes you happy as long as it’s not a severe damage for some other.

And have time “to do nothing” and enjoy the fun of idleness.”

There is no question if said “make decisions without emotions involved”. But can that really happen? Can a decision be taken using the brain alone?

Always a choice is finalized with an emotion even while being driven by logic, sometimes more reactive and some other times less reactive.  These responses are actually the subconscious choices.  So what’s actually wrong in obeying the subconscious mind as long as the choices are not purely driven by poor emotional conclusions alone?

Of course mistakes can happen with emotionally biased quick judgments. And hence if there is no immediate danger, don’t let your emotional brain to overrule the logical brain.

Similarly a pure logical decision can mislead us in a direction opposite to our self-interests. So why not keep a little bit of emotions [ but not any quick judgments] even while being driven by rational thoughts?

Don’t be angry at your kids even when they push the anger button because they are teaching you how to be patient

Recently I read a story of a revolutionist [or I am not sure if it was a film] who wore white dresses only always. When she was about to die, she asked for a green jacket. People thought she has become crazy due to illness and ignored her wish. She died without fulfilling her wish.

She sacrificed her entire life for the wellbeing of the society and finally died as a crazy woman just because of her desire for a green jacket while being on the deathbed.

Why was she forced to suppress her entire emotions while being alive?

Why couldn’t she express her felt emotions?

Was it a part of the so called “disciplined life”?

Obviously “a green jacket” was not at all big thing.. still it was banned in her life for some reasons.

May be a conflict was happening inside her mind between felt and expressed emotions.

Finally she could express a little bit of it only when she was becoming unconscious, nearing death.

And then why did people misunderstand her when she expressed a bit of it during her final moments?

 

Your warmth continues to spiral

Forming an insatiable yen of desire

Within the strings of my heart

My musings dissolves in yours

When your fingers slide around

Playing the familiar song in my nerves

You are my life breath, don’t leave me

Alone, making me out of breath

 

People come and leave our life while some are glued to our hearts. It’s easy to be among strangers as there is no obligations, no demands, no expectations etc etc [Read about “The comfort while being with strangers“]. But when it’s about the glued ones, there is some sort of happiness and at the same time some sort of nervousness too.

What’s that nervousness with them..?

Is it the worries about sustaining the relationship? But does it really matter if they really understand you? Is there any extra effort required to sustain the relationship if there exists a healthy relationship?

No… so what’s that cause of uneasiness or nervousness..?

Is it fear of losing them..? Possible.. You don’t want to miss them as they have become a part of your life and it would be painful if lost them.. Oh.. So isn’t it a selfish thought?.. Like you don’t want to make yourself worried, so you want them to be with you.. hmm…

If you don’t think it to be selfishness, is there any other cause for that uneasiness?

Is it like you have to keep an image with them? ..Say like you are of the type “What others think?”

Okay, if still you think that none of the reasons matches that uneasiness, what else it could be..?

Is it like you love them, care them and trust them, but still feel lonely with them? Like they are not being there for you emotionally. You feel rejected while you were starving for their attention. You are supported neither in your highest good nor in your bad.

Is it like you are never on the same page? So while trying to be on the same page, folds and cuts appear in the page. Those marks remain forever while trying to make yourself fit in to that page, making you uncomfortable.

Is it due to the absence of comfort zone you have with them? You are not free enough to be frank in front of them or you think they don’t let you get inside their zone.

Or is it the sense of wanting to belong as posted here ? When the possessiveness comes in to picture one cannot live without expectations. You worry about the unattended emotions. You are bothered on the lack of acknowledgements.

If you could compromise all these for the sake of peace, well obviously it would be easy to maintain a relationship. But will it be an intimate one then?

So ultimately it makes one to ponder that

You need to work hard at a relationship. So there is no need of feeling down if people say ‘you are in a bad choice’ seeing you working hard.

Ultimately it’s your life and your choice. No one else is responsible for the same. Do whatever makes you happy and positive. And own whatever you do.

Thinking aloud why it should be treated as a big problem after all? Just ….

Why should a person be punished if he or she doesn’t understand or accept his mistakes? Obviously he/she will continue with the same punished behavior behind our back.

I am trying to watch it in a broader sense, say like starting from parents punishing kids to the punishments by the court. In all cases, if one cannot understand his/her mistake, won’t it be repeated?

May be kids won’t do it in their parents presence. But definitely they will do in their parent’s absence. These punishments are just making them a little bit polite, but not moral. They may appear disciplined for a while, but not forever if they don’t understand the wrongs in their side.

Reminds me of this Malayalam song sung by Vineeth Sreenivasan in the movie Oru Vadakkan Selfie “Enne thallendammava njan nannavoola. Mandeel adiyum vare njan nannavoola” [Meaning “No need to beat me uncle, I won’t change good”]

No one would change actually if he/she is not convinced on the mistakes. Simply they may try to avoid the home of punishments. Whenever the situation changes in their favor or if they are not watched, the real nature will be exposed.

And moreover the thought ‘I am being watched’ can actually damage one’s peace, cause stress and ultimately lead to unavoidable crises.

Another point dancing in front of me right now is “If one accepts and feels guilty of his mistakes, should he/she be really punished again?” He already had the punishment of guilty feeling, so why again?

So aren’t these punishments bad weapons? Still why is it being used everywhere?

Or are these punishments showcased as a threat to the future criminals to make them beware of the consequences?

This being a world of ‘add-ons’ I feel some add-ons are required with the current punishments strategy too where in some views must be put before punishing straightaway so as to make them aware of the actual mistakes.

Otherwise what’s the use “If a criminal never regrets on what he has done”? Or otherwise either he must have some solid reasons behind the crime or he must be psychic as posted in Crime is a crime. But who cares his feeling while punishing him straightaway?