Recently I read a story of a revolutionist [or I am not sure if it was a film] who wore white dresses only always. When she was about to die, she asked for a green jacket. People thought she has become crazy due to illness and ignored her wish. She died without fulfilling her wish.
She sacrificed her entire life for the wellbeing of the society and finally died as a crazy woman just because of her desire for a green jacket while being on the deathbed.
Why was she forced to suppress her entire emotions while being alive?
Why couldn’t she express her felt emotions?
Was it a part of the so called “disciplined life”?
Obviously “a green jacket” was not at all big thing.. still it was banned in her life for some reasons.
May be a conflict was happening inside her mind between felt and expressed emotions.
Finally she could express a little bit of it only when she was becoming unconscious, nearing death.
And then why did people misunderstand her when she expressed a bit of it during her final moments?