What am I feeling?
Happy or sad..?
Maybe happy as I’m yet to realize what makes me truly happy; truly happy in the sense without even a second thought in mind about whether I’m happy or not.
But now while smiling I’m sensing it as if ‘I’m experiencing what I’m experiencing’ which makes it weird actually. Likewise I can sense the teary brain, not just teary eyes while crying.
There is a mind within mind !!
Am I going insane..?
Half of my mind is going empty while the other half is still occupied with the ups and downs of emotions. The empty half of mind says, I’m totally sane as I’m having a grip over my own happy or sad mood. But it’s strange and making me go crazy as I’m,
Experiencing thinking not just thoughts !!
And yes, still I’m not lost as I can watch even my own craziness as an outsider.
That dew, that misty drop, juggling an insane heart & a sane brain, reminds me how one masters their thoughts even while being a slave to the emotions. Good & bad are just some insane stories we keep on pouring into the messy business of our own life.
So I don’t mind to say it aloud, I’m
Be different, be weird & Own both
I know, the thoughts are not any undisciplined mess to explore; what goes in mind is not out of mind (yet).
The empty thing doesn’t imply any void to be filled in from outside. I’ve to find this within myself.
Maybe I’ve to access the deepest part of my subatomic particles and farthest reaches of my brain cells to figure this out sane or insane thing.
Weird – “we cant observe consciousness, but can observe with consciousness”
In a way being wired to this weirdness is what makes me weird and sane at the same time!
Yes, This was all written for my terrible mind, but isn’t there a terrible-you in you too, finding the creative side of your brain..?